2011

Dear Readers.

I don’t know which way to run anymore. Nothing ever changes around here. I had so many plans for this year and all of them are already seeming to fall apart. I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired. I am becoming self-destructive again. Hannah is out of town. Permanently. And it just showed me once again that I am all alone on this planet. Yeah sure. Many, if not all of you, love me endlessly, but none of you can really help me. You can keep me company, but the sun always sets and the time to go home always comes. And then I’m alone again. You can organize a sleep-over, but eventually I’ll have to leave.

I can’t wait to see Hannah and Moonflower again. I am so happy around them. Around them I feel human. Around them I am free.

Hannah asked me what I wanted to do this year. Something crazy. He said he wanted to bungee jump, ride horses and ride in a hot air balloon. I’d love to ride in a hot air balloon, but isn’t it a bit pricy? I’d also love to ride horses, regularly, but where? I don’t have a horse and there are absolutely no horse-riding-ranches around here. But yeah, it would be fun. I also want to go explore caves in Hekpoort. Swim in a river. Go camping. Go fishing with Hannah and Moonflower. I want to rock-climb. Hike more. Eat less. (While we’re on the topic, oh my googly-ness! I picked up four kay’s since Christmas!) Oh, and I’m blonde again. Hehe.